Mierzejewski

Time

2012-02-02T11:51:00.000-08:00

Last night I had the worst dream! Michael moved out and was living in a apartment and was living with some guys and was living like a HOARDER, it was awful! Poop on the ground, trash everywhere,and the floor was breaking every time I walked! I thought How could he live like this? In the dream, he moved there because we were in a fight! I woke up very sad!! What a sad thought! I hope this EVER comes true! I don't know why I would dream this!

Last night before the dream....I was talking about Michael about the last 8 years....We were talking about the new practice and how he was getting money in and how all the money went out! So pretty much all the extra money went to bills :) which is great! I am glad that we aren't going in the hole for the practice anymore! But we aren't making extra money for fun stuff! Not that I need FUN stuff, but in the last 8 years (since being married) we really haven't done a REAL vacation! We have done tons of weekend trips and family trips, but this last year we went up to Colorado and had a wonderful time, but it wasn't a trip that I call a vacation, Michael was worried about the practice the whole time, because he was moving it and the whole reason he took it off was because he had to close and move! Then the next week he took off was for knee surgery, which REALLY isn't a vacation for me! I would like a week with him by myself and another week with the kids doing something great! A YEAR! two weeks doing something fun without rushing to get back to work!! I never thought that owning your own practice would be that he would never take time off! Michael works from 8-8 Monday-Friday.... I am so glad that he loves to work and he is a hard worker for our family...But I am trier of not seeing him my kids are trier of not seeing him! And when hes home, he is trier and wants to just crash...I really don't think that this is healthy for anyone involved! I am hoping for a new year of wonderful things and I will be able to spend more time, with my best friend! I really do love him and its great to be able to know that we will be spending eternity with each other! But my kids are only little once and they will grow and move on!
So maybe that's why I had that horrible dream! But I would never want that to happen!

Last year was horrible and I hope that we can move forward and learn from the past! No matter what happens, I don't care... as long as I am with my family!!! and my best friend Michael!! They are the only thing irreplaceable!!!

Grandparents

2011-10-04T11:45:00.001-07:00

Michael's parent came to visit, it's always nice to have family around! They got to see one of Andrew soccer games!

August 29, 2011 First grade

2011-09-19T14:52:00.000-07:00

New Backpack and lunch box

Such a sweet boy

With his teacher Mrs. Castillo

He did great the first week of school! His teacher said that he would make all the sad kids happy and he was such a great help around the classroom!

Knee pain

2011-09-18T19:46:00.001-07:00

Michael was helping me setup a dinner for the kids on the tramp and fell through and hurt his knee it's been a week and I hope it gets better!

Colorado Springs Zoo

2011-08-31T22:19:00.000-07:00

If you go to Colorado Springs...I highly recommend this zoo...it was so much fun! Two days later Andrew was talking in his sleep about feeding the giraffe...the kids want to go everyday since :)

Horseback Riding in Colorado

2011-08-31T21:48:00.000-07:00

Yes Courtney fell asleep!

We were thinking about going two hour ride, but so very glad it was only one hour! The kids loved every minute and they love that they got there own horse...(expect Courtney)

Rockies Game

2011-08-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

Talking about dentistry....so much fun for me...hahaha

look at this place! SOOOOO very cool!

We had suite seats=awesome

It started to rain!

Thanks to Jarum and Comfort Dental we got to see the game in style! I totally could get used to seeing any game this way!!! So much fun for us and the kids! Courtney stayed with the kids back home and had fun playing with kaylee!

Swimming in Colorado

2011-08-28T21:41:00.000-07:00

This last weekend we went to colorado to visit the beautiful state and to see the Boyer family! We all had a great time at the pool!

1st lost tooth

2011-08-08T22:26:00.000-07:00

My baby lost his tooth today...He woke up screaming..."I lost my tooth mom" I know that this doesnt seem to be big to everyone...but for me it means so much! That is the first tooth he got when he was a baby, and it means that he is growing up...and it breaks my heart in more ways then one!!! I am so happy to have this crazy little boy and I love him very much...and I am too very excited for him to grow up and do so much more than me!! He is VERY special and he has come so far!! I love my baby andrew!!!

Griffith Observatory

2011-08-02T15:51:00.000-07:00

funny sign...

This place was really cool too! Its on the top of Hollywood and you could see the whole city, it was pretty amazing! We learned all about the sun, moon, planets!! As we where leaving ...these kids from Japan were loving my kids, and taking pictures of my kids.. they thought that they were famous kids or worth gold!! This always happens when we go to Cali and every time it surprises me!!!

Tar Pits

2011-08-02T15:38:00.000-07:00

Yes Lauren got tar on her hands and knees

Yes this place was really cool! It is a place where tar comes out of the ground! In the past 60,000 years, animals have gotten suck in the tar, this place digs them up to see what type of fossils they can find....it was very cool!!!

Malibu Beach

2011-08-02T15:28:00.000-07:00

Do you see the dolphins??

Isn't that a cool picture??

Michael had some ce courses and we tagged along! We played at the beach while Michael was in class all day :) It was wonderful and the kids loved it!!

Patio

2011-08-02T15:18:00.000-07:00

Before

Before

Before

after

after

We painted the cement...I love... it's so much better!
What do you think?

4th of July 2011

2011-07-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

Kids and I doing snakes

The kids loved the Rockets!

Andrew shooting a firework

Grandpa have a fun time with the kids

Lauren shooting a firework

and even Courtney shooting a firework

Shooting off the rockets

It was a great night! The whole street were out shooting nice fireworks....it was the best 4th of July in a long time! We had a BBQ, then went swimming and fireworks...cant get much better than that!!!

Lake Las Vegas

2011-07-05T22:13:00.000-07:00

Courtney balloon popped...sad little girl

We went up there for fireworks and family fun! We got up there did balloons and sat down...it started to pour a little...but it started to down pour...we got soaked...decided to go home...still a fun day up there....even though it rained on up! Grandpa came with us...kids loved it!

The Valley of Fire

2011-07-05T22:02:00.000-07:00

On the hottest day of the year we decided to go to the valley of fire! It was 110*.... We are not the smartest people in the world, but we drove around it and saw some cool things! The red rock was beautiful and really cool to see!!! Michael wanted to do a little hike, but we didn't have any water and Andrew and I had on flip flops...He was a little sad that I wasn't into it, but Come on... so I guess we will have to go there some other time! The reason that we were out there is because we drove that way for fireworks (so glad too..they were neat) It turned out to be a fun day with the family!

Things I Love....

2011-07-01T18:17:00.000-07:00

I love the rags and all the other stuff that they have there! It makes me enjoy clean ( a little more)!!

My kids don't love RERUNS at all...so every week the kids see a new episode and are so happy and quite...even Courtney loves it! I first thought it might be too scary...but they love it!

I love love love this hair stuff....the oil treatment is what I love the most...I even put it on the girls hair too...its so worth every penny

Books

2011-06-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

Cute Picture

Courtney Loves books! We read to them every night but Courtney (tries) reads more and falls asleep with tons of books around her...its really cute! I love my kids!

31 years young

2011-06-30T22:52:00.000-07:00

I requested Carmel French Toast...Michael is the best

Its a wonderful birthday because I got to be with my kids!!!

Kindergarten Graduation

2011-06-30T22:47:00.000-07:00

This day was so bittersweet for me...I am so happy that he is growing up but also sooo sad that he is growing up! He did so good with all his songs...he was yelling all the words and making me laugh so hard that I was crying! I didn't buy him these balloons, so other kid just gave them to Andrew!

Camping part three

2011-06-02T22:07:00.000-07:00

Camping Part two

2011-06-02T22:02:00.000-07:00

Camping

2011-06-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

Sunscreen

2011-05-25T22:51:00.000-07:00

it was everywhere and she sat in dirt! But no matter what...I still love this girl

Michael is 32 years old

2011-05-25T22:46:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my sweetheart!!!

Happy Birthday Courtney

2011-05-25T22:41:00.000-07:00

I wanted to do a swim party, but the day was so cold! So I quickly looked on craiglist and found a awesome deal! Courtney loved it and we all had a great time! Miss Courtney LOVED having a party!

Back pain

2011-05-19T21:09:00.000-07:00

Well my back went out on Monday...I was at boot camp (trying to excise) We were using weights and I went to pick up a 25 pounder and as I was coming up...the pain was soooo bad! I dropped the weight and sat down quickly...I was in pain! The trainer came over and tried to help but it didn't make it better! So I went over to the physical therapist and they put heat on it and told me to rest when I got home....that day I did rest while the kids ran around, but I had to get Andrew...once Michael was home I went upstairs took a shower and went to bed! It was about 1am and Courtney came in and she went over to her dad and she wanted to sleep with us...he put her in bed with us and she was facing him, all of a sudden she puked all over him and our bed, poor girl!! Michael got up and I had to get up too...I slowly moved to the chair and he did everything! Courtney and him got cleaned up and he changed the beds, then he put Courtney back in her bed, and she came back to us saying that she throw up in her bed...so then Michael had to get up and clean her bed! He ended up staying in another bed with her the rest of the night....The next day Courtney woke up fine and was bouncing around the house! Michael was such a great sport.....I really wanted to help....but my back was in so much pain! Anyway the next day for me...I sent the kids to school...Lauren and Courtney just went to preschool and they just stayed there longer and Andrew went to school and I had a friend pick him up and he got to play a little after school! So I got to sleep most of the day, but between the pain and the drugs I was tried! After Michael came home, he put the kids to bed and the next day I was better and everyday since I have been able to do more and more! Moms are not suppose to be sick, pain, or anything else! I will most likely go back to working out within the next week and see how that goes! But I am so glad it wasnt something worse! So thats the story for this week....I am sure there will be more to come!

Easter 2011

2011-05-09T14:25:00.000-07:00

The Courtney got her favorite thing...paint! She had to do it that day!

grrrrr....Courtney

2011-05-09T14:18:00.000-07:00

Lately she has been extra bad! I got this fish from the fair and we kept it for awhile, it died but I was very surprised that it lasted that long...to be honest! She dumped ALL the fish flakes in the bowl...do you see it??? Then a few days later Michael decided to get a fish tank and get more fish! Lovely! Anyway I was doing something and I look over and she is in the fish tank again...this time she was all wet... I got her down and noticed that two little fish were on the counter flipping around! They lived ...thank goodness...well for a couple of days!

Courtney had also got in to the oatmeal and she decided to put it all in my carpet! Vacuumed that up! Then the next day (or so) She got in to the butter and decided to spread it everywhere.. all over her body and hair, carpet and walls...really???? The girl loves butter, but really, she doesn't need to put her whole hand in the butter!! Gross!!! Then we went swimming the other day, and I put sunscreen on my kids, then we were done swimming...I went in the house for something...come back and the BRAND new bottle of sunscreen was all over her and her hair and she was sitting in the dirt and the rest of the bottle was in squeezed in the dirt! Do you know how hard it is to get off sunscreen? Its got this waxy film and combined with dirt= not very fun!

She might be ready for pre-school!! hahaha love this girl!!!

Scrappy the new dog

2011-05-09T13:58:00.000-07:00

We bought him home from AZ he did really good on the way home

Isn't he cute

So far he has been a great dog!! Not to much work, cause I already have one dog.. the but I don't like that its more dog poop...but its okay! He is still very little, so I have to carry him down the stairs...he's got little legs! haha

Quick trip to AZ

2011-05-09T13:51:00.000-07:00

Piano time with great grandma

With the great grandparents...all smiles!!!

Uncle Bryce playing with the kids

Makenna swimming with Courtney!

Michael takes a swim with the kids

mmmm....my kids love hanging out with the dogs!!

It was a quick trip...saw tons of new things, such as my uncle Johns apartment, saw my grandparents house, and my cousin Colin house...which he had remolded tons of stuff in his house and he did amazing job!!! Kids loved it...they love going on trips! They ask all the time to go somewhere!

Clark County Fair

2011-05-09T13:35:00.000-07:00

Michael bought me the pass! I was a little bugged by it cause that ment I had to go on all the rides with the kids...while he sit backs and watches!

I pay a game and I won this fish!! Andrew named it "Andrew" so much for creativity!

She wasn't big enough to ride the ride!

I dont want to be on this dump ride!

Photography

2011-05-04T16:31:00.000-07:00

Yes I did/do photography! Back in the day (before kids) I worked as a photographer at Sears portrait studios and Kiddie Kandids! I also worked as a inter for Scott Hancock! As I got married I just wanted to be a stay at home mom...still do!! But now I think its time to start this little project again...as lots of people are asking!

I will only charge $40 for a sitting this will include about a hour of time and all pictures on usb or CD(of your choice)

Let me know if you are interested!!
702-994-1745

Andrew SIX years old

2011-04-27T22:13:00.000-07:00

Courtney is THREE!!!

2011-04-25T16:28:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my little cutie!

After school...dog love

2011-04-24T20:12:00.000-07:00

After school he comes and attacks the dog! He loves the dog so much!

Happy Easter Everyone

2011-04-24T19:27:00.000-07:00

Love, Courtney, Andrew, and Lauren
2011

7 years

2011-04-21T20:55:00.000-07:00

He took me to Celine...pure awesomeness!!!!

Yummy Dinner at Ceaser Palace

Great night

Andrew turns 6

2011-04-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

April 11
Mario theme cake!!! This year we just had a little family party for his birthday! He got a few presents and had a great time! I took cupcakes to his school and he loved it! He wanted French Toast for breakfast and for dinner he want teriyaki chicken...I can't believe that he is six! Time has gone by to fast, even faster now that he is in school! I love this little man so much!

Nail Polish

2011-04-21T19:24:00.000-07:00

Courtney loves her nails to be painted...most of the time I don't have the time to paint them...so this happens all the time, she really does a great job, and doesn't get it on the carpet or floor! I don't like her to do it with out me, so whenever she is in my bathroom and she is really quite I know she is painting her nails!

Playroom

2011-04-21T19:15:00.000-07:00

I moved the playroom downstairs and in the process got rid of 4 bags of toys and gave them to my church! Anyway the kids love it and are playing with there toys more! Lauren is anyway playing with her "little dogs" and having a great time!

Watermelon Cutie

2011-04-21T19:10:00.000-07:00

Courtney just loves watermelon, its her favorite!!!

Hair Cut by Andrew

2011-04-04T21:59:00.000-07:00

As we were putting the girls beds together, Andrew decided to cut the girls hair! I know that it could have been so much worse but I still don't love it and I don't know what to do with it! But here it is....what do you think???

Green Green Green

2011-03-27T22:41:00.000-07:00

Green eggs, green pancakes, and green orange juice

Courtney painted her toes and legs, she was just trying to be festive

I tried to make a four leaf clover, with Laurens hair! Will do better next year

blog

2011-03-24T22:43:00.000-07:00

I have been wanting to come on here and post a bunch of things, but my laptop is broken and I will have to take it in tomorrow! So beware of lots of posts from pictures of us at the cabin to Andrew cutting the girls hair to all the furniture that I am playing with! So exciting, right!! So until next time!!!!

Courtney Jane

2011-03-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

I see this picture a lot!

Oh man, I love this little girl so much! She is determine to keep up and if you don't include her she freaks out! She is the most jealous kid that I know of...if you gave it to someone and you didn't give it to her, pre pair for a melt down! Right now she cant decided if she wants to be a baby or a big girl! She was potty train completely and then was having tons of accidents after brook... so I put her back in diapers, I know worse thing ever...but I am done and will do a summer potty boot camp! Whatever works, and I am not to worried about it!! Lately she has been into painting and loves to color! She is good at it, and it keeps her busy! One day Andrew was talking about what he wanted to be when he grew up and she shouted out that she wanted to be a "COOKER MAN" which I started to laugh, but every time anyone is mixing or cooking some thing she runs over and yells "I HELP"...I wont be surprised if she will be a chief or just loves to cook! Courtney is so funny at night...she screams and starts to walk to our room, and I ask her what do need? THIRSTY ... this happens about 6 times a night...the girl can drink! I put her back to bed and she is out! She has her moments and she can make me laugh so hard, the things that she says crack me up! She loves to play outside and run around...she still loves the color yellow! She is one happy little girl...most of the time! I love you Courtney and I cant believe that you will be three in a month!

Slow down and enjoy life

2011-03-10T21:14:00.000-08:00

I read this on a blog and I love it! It drives me crazy that working moms make life so hard!! I hate it when they put that stress on you, and they ask you if "the stay at home mom" can watch there kids too, for no money!! Oh my gosh!!!!

.memoriesoncloverlane.blogspot.com/

Simplicity, simplicity, simplicity!
I say, let your affairs be as two or three,
and not a hundred or a thousand instead of a million count half a dozen,
and keep your accounts on your thumb-nail.
~Henry David Thoreau

What if you gave up your obligations to school, to church, to just about anything else, especially when they just made you feel stressed and frantic?
What if you cut to the core everything but just the bare essentials of time commitments?What if you woke up in the morning to see an almost blank calendar staring at you in the face everyday? What if you were able to fill that calendar only with what you felt was best for your family?
What if you never felt torn in a million directions, but could "keep your accounts on your thumb-nail"?
What if you felt calm almost all the time?What if you said no to playgroups, no to toddler activities, no to endless play dates, no to so much running around?
What if you refused to feel pressured, guilty, or weird for living a life that looked quite the opposite of the way everyone at the time was living theirs?
What if you could say 'no' without following it with an apology or an excuse?
What if you were able to stand strong with constant endurance against the daily onslaught of the frantic pace of society and find a different quiet, child-friendly path of mothering?
What if, in spite of what society is telling you, you decided that the role of mother is enough work to warrant all of your time, attention and talents and never needed to be shared with less important man-made things?
I've asked myself all these questions over the course of my 16 years of parenting, and I still continue asking. What if? We have the power to change so much about our lives! I hear a lot of excuses out there, (in my own brain too!), but more than at any other time in the history of the world, we have the power of choice. We mothers are not spending time gathering clean water from the only town well miles away, or making fires to bake bread with the wheat we grew and tended ourselves. Where do we spend our time? When we complain about how much we must do, or how there is no time left in the day for the important stuff, are the mothers who have gone before us (or living in another part of the world!) rolling their eyes and laughing hysterically at us? I think they might be.
We have the power to decide what kind of mother we want to be to our children. How will your children remember you when they are older? What kind of mother do you want to be described as one day? I know, it's a question that sends a little fear into the heart of all of us. Will they say I was too stressed, too busy, impatient and angry? Will they say I seemed to spend time on everything else but them? Will they say, "I needed you then, but you were never really listening?"
Of course, we mothers are human, learning as we go, making plenty of mistakes on the way. I'd like to live though, with a little bit of contentment in my heart, that I gave this mothering thing the best shot I had. Asking and answering those hard questions reminds me of that contentment I wish for.
As I get older I've gotten braver...sometimes in great bursts of choices to say no as I wiped my calendar cleaned and vowed to keep it that way, sometimes with the regret of learning the hard way with stressful years as I split my time among too many obligations, or wishing time would move faster instead of slower ("as soon as spring is over, things will slow down and I can enjoy more..."). I have been inspired to be courageous by studying others whom I admire, who exude a peace and contenment in their mothering spirit. I have been falsely misled by my own self, quick to buy into the "how does she do it all so well?" comparison, only to find out once again, it's an illusion. (Because it is every time! Doing it all and doing the important things well does NOT exist, please know..and the price is almost always paid by the little ones that don't have a voice.) I have been way too quick to jump on a bandwagon, only to fall off and hit the ground hard, with a few bruises but a little relief in my heart.
But now more than ever, when I look around the see us all struggling with the juggling, the part that can make me pretty darn angry, is that, more than ever, we moms are supposed to, expected to, told to, demanded to, fit SO MUCH into our lives in addition to doing the most important thing in the world...raising our children.
It's enough to be a mother. Just a mother. I might be the only person that tells you that ever in your lifetime. And I might be wrong. I might be crazy. I might have been born a couple generations too late. But I think it's a darn big job that takes an incredible amount of energy, endurance, spiritual and physical strength and if we are not in the thick of it almost every minute, we should be recharging our batteries with a quiet moment to ourselves so we can jump right back in. Our children deserve a mother who is unstressed, happy, content, and PRESENT. We deserve to feel unstressed, happy, content and PRESENT....we are doing the most important job on earth.

Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius—and a lot of courage—to move in the opposite direction.
-E. F. Schumacker

Stole it too!

2011-03-09T12:42:00.000-08:00

I read this on someones blog today and had to record it. So profound and meaningful."Ezra Taft Benson said, ""What does it mean to love someone with all your heart? It means to love with all your emotional feelings and with all your devotion. Surely when you love your wife with all your heart, you cannot demean her, criticize her, find fault with her, or abuse her by words, sullen behavior, or actions."What does it mean to 'cleave unto her'? It means to stay close to her, to be loyal and faithful to her, to communicate with her, and to express your love for her. "Love means being sensitive to her feelings and needs. She wants to be noticed and treasured. She wants to be told that you view her as lovely and attractive and important to you. Love means putting her welfare and self-esteem as a high priority in your life."One last quote I found interesting was, "Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is growing up." --James A. Baldwin"

Random thoughts

2011-03-06T21:46:00.000-08:00

Adoption...thinking about it, but Michael is ready to be done... but me...well I hate to be pregnant and it would be wonderful to have a another baby in our family...but right now we are good and happy so...this is just a random thought!

Sadness... I have been really sad the last 2 weeks...hoping it will pass, if it doesn't I am going to go to the doctor and ask about anti-depression meds, but I think it will pass!

Activities...we have way too many! I feel like we are doing to much and eating out way to much...I want to slow down and do the project that I started and finish them...wishing for more time!

Sacrifice...went to the temple this week and what stood out the most is sacrifice...I feel like everything can be a sacrifice, the good and the bad, what do you give up for the better good for you? for your family? for god? for Satan? What holds you back from you leading a more happy life? I feel like its services...I need to sever

Time...Is there really enough time? No! But what do you hold close to your heart that you make sure that you do daily and its really nothing (facebook) and then tell everyone that you just don't have the time. The one thing that I have learn most about having brook is... to love the babies I do have and make sure we are happy and to love my dear husband and nothing else matters...life goes by to quickly

like I said...so random

California

2011-03-03T21:51:00.000-08:00

Well it was a great trip and so full of tons of activities, can you believe that we did all that in three days? Michael planned it all and it was so much work...but it was so worth it cause we had a great time! The kids did great in the car and were very happy the whole trip...my they are getting so easy to travel with! I do have to share one cute story....When we got to the hotel, Courtney walk in and saw the beds and she started to pout, and she said "Where is my baby crib?" so we call the front desk and they bought one up! She was so happy! A few months ago she didn't want to be the baby anymore and wanted nothing to do with it, but now (oh my) she is very happy to be babied and she acts out more and it cute but she is almost three and need to grow up a tiny bit, but not to much :)

The Beach

2011-03-03T21:49:00.000-08:00

The beach was so relaxing and fun, I am so glad that I got to see it! Michael is not a huge fan of the beach, he hates getting sand everywhere and he hates sitting in it! But I bought him a chair and we had a good day!!!

Knotts Berry Farm

2011-03-03T21:07:00.000-08:00

I love this picture of Michael on the bus!

Laure and I were on the Farris wheel and they were waiting for us on the ground

Michael went on this ride by himself, it looked to scary for me! Do you see him?

I love Lauren sweet face! Priceless!!!

We had a great time and the weather was a little cold but nice! The lines were short and the kids got to ride on everything and we had a fun time, even Courtney loved it! I love my new camera, I think that I got some great shots and smiles to capture the real fun!!!

Getty Museum-2-CA

2011-02-25T13:47:00.000-08:00

Do you see Andrew? He is sitting behind Lauren in the stroller playing Mario, pretty much the whole time we were there he was playing with it! hahaha The museum is Hugh and full of tons of different things to see and do! Most of it is art from the past and what they did back in the olden days...the kids like the family part but we might have to go back and see the rest, the kids got bored really quickly, but the stuff we did see was amazing and worth seeing!! The place is free to visit but you have to pay for parking...so much fun!!!

Getty Museum-1-CA

2011-02-25T13:35:00.000-08:00

Angels Flight Railway-CA

2011-02-25T13:25:00.000-08:00

Downtown LA they have this railway and it was made a long time ago and back in those days they used it for the rich people. The rich people lived at the top and the poor people lived at the bottom. It was .25 to ride and it would go up and down! Another fun thing that we did while we were in California!

Little Train Ride-CA

2011-02-25T13:16:00.000-08:00

Every three weeks they do this little train ride (its free) they take you around and its kind of neat because the train is so small and carry a lot of people! Its was perfect thing to do and the kids loved it!

LOVE day!

2011-02-22T21:59:00.000-08:00

Daddy always brings the kids sweet little gifts for the kids! They got balloons and flowers and necklaces and candy...Lauren and Courtney slept with there balloons and bags!! It was so cute...but I had to made sure that the balloon was away from Courtney's head so that the string wouldn't get wrapped around here head! Michael got me some goodies too, it was a fun day!!!

Glasses

2011-02-11T23:25:00.000-08:00

Yep I got glasses! I was having some issues with reading and headaches, so I went to the eye doc and got a eye exam. It was 50% worse then the last time, can you believe that??? I picked out some new frames! I love seeing again, its like seeing in HD!!! I have been wearing them all the time and its so nice, and when I take them off, oh man, I can't see and everything is blurry! Weird, I must be getting old and my babies took everything from me!! But that's okay!!!

Valentines Playgroup

2011-02-11T22:34:00.000-08:00

Our church had a Valentines party and it was so much fun! All the kids played games and did crafts, it was great! They passed out the valentines and got a bunch of treats! Happy V-day!!

Baby Shower

2011-02-11T22:15:00.000-08:00

I had the chance to throw a baby shower for my good friend who is having a boy! A lot of people were like OOHH are you sure you can do that?? Absolutely!!! I was so happy to have something else on my mind, it was so nice to plan and soooo easy! All of our friends helped and it came together nicely! The girl that did the food was amazing and the food was delicious!! Fun Fun! Now I just want to have more parties!!!

Hockey Game

2011-02-11T21:56:00.000-08:00

Are great friends had some tickets and weren't able to go so asked us if we wanted to go, and of course we said yes! We all had a great time! The first time they kind of got into a fight I was a little shocked and was worried, but it was fun to see!! That was my first time ever going to a hockey game and it was really cool and fun! The kids love eating their cotton candy...good times!

Craiglist Deal

2011-02-03T21:42:00.000-08:00

I was so excited to find this great playground, I had to find the right one that would fit into our backyard and I got it for a great deal!! It will also work for a slide into the pool...so awesome and the kids love it...and yes its the end of January and we can go play outside! I love the vegas weather!

Just a cute picture of Andrew and its sad how fast he is growing up...those pants are 5t and growing out of them...can't beleive that he will be 6 soon! =(

Dance Class-together

2011-02-03T21:24:00.000-08:00

I have been wanting to put the girls in dance for a while now, but just wanted to find the right time! I am taking the kids out of gymnastics..I am bored and need a change, I might come back I might not...Anyway I love this new place, its close to the house and the girls can take it together...its wonderful! Its called Pre-dance and they do ballet for the first 30min. and the next 30min. they do tap! They love tap!!! Aren't they so cute...They are so much fun to watch too!

Dance Class-Courtney

2011-02-03T21:10:00.000-08:00

Dance Class-Lauren

2011-02-03T21:00:00.000-08:00

I love this picture..because she is the only one listening to the teacher and doing what she is suppose to do!

Kindergarten troubles

2011-02-01T20:55:00.000-08:00

So Andrew has been coming home from school and I always ask him, "How was school?" Lately he has been saying "not good" and of course I ask "why?" Well its because girls have been chasing him around trying to hug and kiss him! At first I thought that this was kind of cute! But then the other day he didn't want to go to school at all...because he was afraid of the girls chasing him! I told him that he was a fast kid and to just run away, but I also don't want him to have to run away the whole time at recess....So I talk to the teacher the other day and things are better, and he is happy to go to school again!
But don't you think its a little young to start all this kissing??

A LITTLE PISSED OFF

2011-01-28T20:35:00.000-08:00

Okay first of all lets start from the beginning... Last December I started to think about having a baby...I got my IUD out, I got out my IUD for two reasons, to lose a few pounds and to get pregnant in about April, because I thought that it would be fun to have a Febuary baby! Well I lost 5 more pounds, but April came and I forgot about insurance (I know, I mean how could I forget??) Anyway I got on insurance and that meant that I couldn't get pregnant for a whole year, or at least not have a baby until next April....I hope that makes sense...So about six months of being on insurance we decided to start trying and that means we would have our baby around the end of April if I got pregnant that month...Well I did....So that means I have been paying extra money to be on insurance, about $200 a month extra for the last year! Then since I am not on insurance yet, I was a cash patient at the doctors office and I saw him about 6 times so I was paying him about $100 to $150 for each visit...so $600 more, and now we have to pay for the whole hospital bill..and I am not quite sure how much that is.....Yes this is very true! I am MAD!!

I have gained a lot of weight...I worked so hard to get it off after having Courtney, now I have no motivation, and the reason I gained so much is because I was soooo sick and I was in so much pain with Brook all I wanted to do is rest, and I was a horrible mom to my other kids and always would say I am pregnant and I can't do that or I can't do this...which is very reasonable for a pregnant mom....but now I have nothing to show for it...it just sucks
Then at the church playgroup there are other moms due around the same time I was, and they are very pregnant and just waiting for their babies to be born...I really don't know what to say to them!!

My wonderful kids have been informed about what happened, so why on earth do they keep asking and role playing, it hurts...Almost everyday Lauren says "the baby is dead, right mom" or Lauren will say "what will happen when the baby comes?" I am really not mad at her but she was just really excited to have another sister!
I also have been going out of my way to make them happy, like giving into them, buying them everything, putting them in everything...this is so not going to be good in a few months! But right now I can't handle fighting with them, especially Andrew, he is starting to say mean things to me and is getting away with it...I just don't want to deal with it!

NOW... I am super sensitive and get mad at stupid people and what they say...How can people be so rude and mean....not that they really mean too, it's just really hard to talk to me right now, but people, (including my dear hubby) need to filter themselves...someone told me "You have to be a strong person or a strong family or GOD wouldn't put you though this....ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? I am a wreck and I HAVE to put on a happy face I have three other kids looking at Michael and I, and I don't want them to be discarded....Plus this really shouldn't happen to anyone and nobody is strong enough to go though this, we fake it until we make it or until time makes it a little better!!! Want another one? "There must have been a good reason for her not to be here"...that one just makes me sad!

Then off to my CRAZY extended family....I don't even know how to start!!! My dumb brother went to jail and instead of me...we all worry about the kid (who is 26) who has made bad choices and has put himself in this position! I think that if people choose to do stupid things they should have to pay for them!!! They need to sit in jail for a long time and pay for what they did!!! He didn't learn the nice way when the whole family has helped him, so now maybe he will learn from this....but my dad is trying to use all of his power to get him out, and he has to come up with all this money and bail him out...to me this is not the way to do it, THIS IS CRAZY!!! So now my brother doesn't have a car and has to live with my dad or something...I really don't know the plan, but come on!!!
What makes me so mad about this is that if I asked my dad for $10,000 for something great, like going to college or to help pay something or whatever good for my kids...he would just roll his eyes, but he can come up with it in two weeks for my brother to get him out of jail, because he is afraid of looking bad!! Not that I want his money...just to make that clear!!!
Then my Mother, who I haven't talked to in years, decided to choose her stupid ass boyfriend who treats her like shit over having a healthy relation with us or my brother! She calls me after having Brook and leaves a message...are you kidding me, if I didn't want to talk to you before then I don't want to talk to you now, I am not a charity case, if you didn't want to talk before...well now is not the time!! I just lost my baby and you didn't give a rats ass when you found out that I was pregnant...I mean really!!!!????

Someone once told me it was okay to be mad sooo....there I feel better!!!

MLK

2011-01-23T20:25:00.000-08:00

Andrew had the day off and my friend called me and asked me if we wanted to go four Wheeling, and of course we did!!! I was sad that Michael couldn't join us, he had to go to work, hahah! We all had a blast, and CRAZY Andrew somehow crashed into a rock and tipped the ATV over and got lots of scratches all down his back. I was worried, but he couldn't have cared and was like lets do that again!!! He is one crazy little boy!!!! Lauren and Courtney just played in the sand and had a great time! It was a great day!! Thanks Cassey!!

Look MOM!!!

2011-01-23T20:12:00.000-08:00

GROSS!!! But funny!!

Dentist

2011-01-23T20:03:00.000-08:00

Well I thought that it was time to take the kids to the dentist since its been a whole year....I know that we are suppose to go every six months but I live with a dentist so I thought that we could get away with it, right!!! So we go in and the kids are doing great Lauren was first and got her cleaning and Courtney was great too during her cleaning, well then Andrew throws a fit, then I leave and then he decides to be good and starts laughing, crazy Andrew! Then Michael comes in and checks for teeth bugs, Andrew is great, Courtney is great, Lauren has 3 cavities...what??? How can that be?? We all brush at the same time!! We even do the following at night...Floss, brush, and we use kids listerine mouthwash..I told Michael that it was to much, that brushing should be enough....but no I was wrong! So Lauren had to get 3 shots (I don't know how Michael did that) I was holding Lauren and I closed my eyes while she got the shots! She did so good, I thought that she was going to throw a fit, but she held my hand and was awesome! During the drilling part she was awesome as well, but the we got to the part where they put etch in (nasty tasting stuff) she freak out...but we got it done! Well after she was still numb and I kept telling her not to chew on her lip, well she didn't listen and now look at it!! I feel soooo bad for her, I feel like she had to get work done and now this!! I just want her to feel better, because she is such a good little girl!! Well in a few days I hope that she will feel better!!
I guess we will be going to the dentist more offend and brush more!! My poor baby girl!

Sisters

2011-01-16T16:58:00.000-08:00

I got these cute dresses, don't they look so cute! They love each other and would be lost without each other!

Life goes on?!? =(

2011-01-11T22:50:00.000-08:00

Its weird because a lot of people are coming up to me and asking me "How are you?" or "How are you feeling?" I tell them I am okay....then at night right before I go to sleep, I feel super guilty for not telling them the truth which is that I am sad, that I feel horrible, that I am mad, or that I just want to make all of this go away and for everything to be fine! But then I think that they really don't want to hear all of that, people want to think that you are fine, because then if you do tell the truth, NOBODY knows what to say to you!!

If this happen to a close friend I would think... I don't know how anyone could go though that... and here I am. Some moments I feel okay (even happy) but most times I am heartbroken, sad, and why did this have to happen.

I just have to remember that there is a bigger plan out there and that time will help, I don't think that it will go away but with time it won't be so much on my mind.

Today we did all the paperwork for the cremation and it was hard. I didn't know how much goes into someone when they die. Its a process that I don't want to do for a long time. I got a beautiful urn, and when I die she will be buried with me.

Brook Mierzejewski

2011-01-08T16:07:00.000-08:00

************ Warning Pictures of the baby (she was stillborn)********************************

The reason that I am writing this is because I use this a my journal and I want to remember and for all those who ask

At 20 weeks along I have a regular ultrasound and everything looked great but she was a little small and low, she also had little fluid, so they wanted to do a another ultrasound at 24 weeks! Well I told Michael not to come because it was just a check up and to see if everything was okay, but he surprised me and came! I was so happy to have him there! The ultrasound lady was very quite during and all of a sudden turned off the machine and looked at me all sad, and said I have some bad news, the baby doesn't have a heart beat. I broke out in tears and said are you sure, and she said that "she wont have told me that if she wasn't for sure." She told us that we had to come back that day and talk to the doctor, so we came back and we asked the doctor all different questions and then we decided to do it on Friday because I wanted help and I wanted Michael to be able to be there and not have to worry about work. But it was really hard to know that my baby wasn't alive and that I had to wait. Michael mom came in on Thursday night its nice to have extra help! Thursday night Michael gave me a blessing of comfort. Friday came and we woke up at 3:30 and drove to the hospital, checked in and got all hooked up. They gave me medicine and I was having contractions, I was having pain so they gave this pain medicine and it was horrible stuff, it didn't take away any pain, but it made me loopy and I couldn't talk and couldn't move it was the worse stuff ever! I started to throw up. Well after about 4 to 5 hours it finally started to fade, I was really upset that it took that long to get out of my system! The contractions were about 2 to 3 min. apart but I didn't want anymore pain medicine! I got to about a 9 and asked for a epidural, it was so nice! Epidural are from god and are the best!! I could finally relax a little! About 20 to 30 minutes later I had her. The doctor pulled her out and went to check her out, the cord was wrapped around her neck THREE times and that everything else looked okay, he asked me if I wanted to see her and of course I did. They bought her over and I was in tears the whole day but I had never been that sad in my whole life. She was beautiful and she look like her brother and sisters, she was amazing in every way! We spent the next few hours with her and we had to decided what to do with her and we pick out the mortuary, it was very hard. We were there for a few more hours to make sure I was okay, they did more tests and made sure that I was feeling okay before we left. We left and went home, I came home and saw my 3 beautiful kids, who are so sweet and so loving, ate dinner and went to bed. It was a hard day and I am sure that the days to come I will have up's and Down's but in the end we are a very strong family, and I know that I will see her again and I am so happy to have the Gospel in our lives!
I have had lots of people who have been there for us, people who have prayed for us, and put us in there thoughts. We are so blessed to have so many wonderful family and friends at this time! I am so grateful and want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

We named her Brook Mierzejewski she weighed 6.1 ounces 9.5 inches
The reason that I am posting these pictures is because she was real and that she was there!!!

Snow

2011-01-03T20:34:00.000-08:00

It snows one or two days a year! And every year I get so excited and wish it would do it more! The kids wanted to play in it, but we had to get ready for school! It stopped about 20min. later and melted all away! But it was fun while it lasted!

Happy New Year 2011

2011-01-03T20:27:00.000-08:00

We stayed home this year and I loved it! We stayed in our pj's and watched the ball drop! Andrew stayed up until 11:30 and the girls went to bed around 8! Its super hard for me to have my kids up past 8, and they have a hard time with it too, all grumpy the next day! Anyway we had a great night and I am excited for the new year!!!

Something that I hate about myself

2011-01-03T20:09:00.000-08:00

My friend Abby put up a 30 questions about what to write in your blog, since I won't do everyday I will pick a few of them!!!!

I hate that its sooooo easy for me to gain weight and soooo hard for me to lose it!! I am sure a lot of people have this problem too! But really its not fair =)

Lauren 4 years old picutures

2010-12-29T20:35:00.000-08:00

My beautiful Lauren did a great job on her pictures, soooo many cute ones!!! How can a Mom choose?? I loved them all!!

Christmas Morning 2010

2010-12-28T20:38:00.000-08:00

Bright and early Andrew came running into our room screaming its Christmas! I told him to come and cuddle with us and wait for the girls to wake up. He told me that he was going to go downstairs and just look at his presents, I said okay...Then all of sudden Lauren and Courtney come out of there rooms saying that Andrew woke them up! We all got up and started the fun! The kids got a lot of presents and were playing with them all day! We had Crepes for breakfast and we had a wonderful Christmas dinner (Michael made both!) I had a much need nap and relaxed most of the day, it was so nice to just be with our little family, I just love them so much!!!

Disclaimer...we live in Vegas were its hot, we don't wear lots of clothes to bed!

No Training Wheels

2010-12-19T10:07:00.000-08:00

He could of done it long ago but we haven't tried it! He will still need to practice a little more but he is loving the idea!!! He did tell me that once you don't have training wheels, then you can go to scouts!! I don't know where he learned that??

Playing in the leaves!

2010-12-19T10:00:00.000-08:00

Hours of fun!

Gingerbread House FUN!!!

2010-12-19T09:50:00.000-08:00

Courtney did a little finger painting!!
We had so much fun doing our gingerbread houses and trains! The kids ate all the candy and licked all the frosting!

Sledding

2010-12-18T16:45:00.000-08:00

Lauren

Andrew

Courtney

Michael and Lauren
We went up to Cedar City last week, we saw some friends and we all went sledding! Andrew loved it as always, but the girls, not so much! I really need to get them used to this type of stuff, no one likes a cry baby!!! Lauren was better then Courtney, but Lauren was having shoe problems!

Home Improvements

2010-12-14T16:43:00.000-08:00

New carpet and tile....It is so nice and I love it!! If you come over Please dont wear shoes on my new carpet!! Thanks The kids will yell at you too!!! hahaha

Park & Santa

2010-12-14T16:33:00.000-08:00

Kids with Santa

With the Reindeer

Playing at the park!

Week 20

2010-12-14T16:24:00.000-08:00

I am getting fat! Hopefully the camera is adding some weight to these pics! Baby oh Baby!!

Baby #4 is a girl

2010-12-05T21:05:00.000-08:00

This last week we had a ultrasound. I took Andrew out of school and we all went to see the baby. We found out that we are having a girl, I was a tiny sad that we weren't having a boy but now very excited to have a girl! I have everything and it will be so much fun having lots of girls in the house! I never had a sister so now I can live though them! Andrew was a little worked up about having a girl, crying and being sad, but he is happy now and will have to take care of his sisters!! The baby looks great but is about two weeks smaller than planned, and the baby is sooo low! I have been in a lot of pain, very sore hips and back pain! I rest a lot these days and try not to do to much! Sometimes it feels like bone on bone, and I do want to cry!! Doctor says its normal have having lots of kids, and c-sections! I have gain about 18lbs, which I hate, because I know how hard it is to work off, but it is all for a good reason! I know I have a long time before its over, but I do want it to be over and for her to just be here already!! This will be my last baby, and it makes me sad that I will never do this again, but also very happy to just enjoy the kids and watch them grow up! Pregnancies is the hardest thing for me, 20 weeks of puke, feeling sick, acid reflex, no sleep, getting fat, headaches, so on and so on! But all worth it in the end....just don't want to do it anymore!!

The Polar Express

2010-12-02T21:01:00.000-08:00

Ever since I moved to Vegas I wanted to take my kids to the polar express in Williams AZ! It was so much fun and the kids loved it! We got there and took pictures with Mrs. Clause and Santa!! Then we got our tickets and got on the train! On the train, we got hot cocoa and cookies. They read a book, sang songs, and Santa came and gave them all a bell! It was so much fun and they talk about it all the time! Here are some pictures, in NO order of our fun time!

Thanksgiving 2010

2010-12-02T14:33:00.000-08:00

Our wonderful friends

All the yummy food

Flagstaff-Swim

2010-12-02T14:27:00.000-08:00

We found this cute little indoor waterpark and the kids had a blast! We were there for about 2.5 hours!! So much fun, and it was so fun to see all the snow outside!

Flagstaff-snow!!!

2010-12-02T14:18:00.000-08:00

We stayed a night in flagstaff and we woke up to a winter land. It was so cute, Lauren and Courtney woke up and went to the window in the hotel and started screaming and giggling that it was snowing! They couldn't wait to go and play in it!

The Elf

2010-12-02T14:12:00.000-08:00

Well my kids must be very very special because they got a elf to come to our house. The elf came on Thanksgiving night and will be with us until Christmas! Every night he goes back to the north pole and reports to Santa if the kids are naught or nice, he has very magical powers! The kids run downstairs and see where he is, and they are being extra good!! We have named him Pukernut and he is so fun to have!

Birthday Cake and Dinner

2010-11-29T21:52:00.000-08:00

Lauren loves corn dogs and Mac and Cheese...so for dinner that's what she got! She loved her cake and gifts! She also had donuts breakfast, she loves donuts. So all and all I hope that so she love her day!!

Lauren is FOUR!!

2010-11-29T21:38:00.000-08:00

Lauren is now four, she wanted a birthday party, so we delivered!! Hello Kitty was the theme and it was totally fun and so girly! Lauren loved all of her friends that came over! Happy Birthday to my sweet Lauren!!!!

Lauren at Gymcats

2010-11-29T21:30:00.000-08:00

She is working hard and doing great! She loves it and can't wait to go.

Courtney at Gymcats

2010-11-29T21:23:00.000-08:00

Still going strong and loving it! She is really good at it too, pretty much is doing it all by herself! Most likely she will move up to the next level soon!

Andrew's Soccer Fall 2010

2010-11-29T21:13:00.000-08:00

Andrew did really good this last season, I didn't know if he would hate it or like he did when he was three, but he really surprised us and tried very hard! He made one goal and play a lot! He's really has some great skills!

Why Four??

2010-10-18T21:32:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking about this for sometime now, and right now some days I wonder about myself!! Am I crazy? Do I love changing more diapers? Do I love loud noise all the time? Do I love more laundry? Do I love to hear crying babies? Do I love more work? Do I love being pregnant? Do I love it when all my kids are sick at the same time? To all of these questions it is a big fat NO!!! So why on earth would I do this to myself?? One day I was upset and I need something in the garaged and I saw all the stuff I was saving for the next child, and I thought to myself...why didn't I just get rid of all this stuff??
Well four months ago I really thought that we were ready! If we were going to have another one then I just wanted to get it done and ready to move on!! I felt like if we didn't do it then, then I might have changed my mind! Michael always wanted more, last Christmas we were sitting around the table and Michael says to me "I feel like some one is missing" and I said to him "I know"... I don't want to be a old lady wondering why didn't I have more kids?? We are so lucky to have the kids we have!! They are my life and I would do anything for them! We are so lucky to get pregnant, and so fast too!! I am so excited to have another baby in the family, and I think that it will bring us closer together! Marriage, kids, life, work, Yep its hard!!! Life is NOT suppose to be easy!!! I do take one day at a time, right now! Right now its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, it seems to be such a long tunnel! But it will come and I will still be alive and it will be awesome and these days when I am so sick and tired will be a big blur of time! I know that I can get though these days, because I am strong, a women, and dam proud of it!!! So bring it on!!!

They are so sweet when they are sleeping

2010-09-04T21:05:00.000-07:00

Yep its true, I am due at the end of April!! After I had Courtney I just knew that we would have one more, and now that Courtney is a little older and so are the others... that this will just be perfect!! I am truly excited, it will be a fun next year!!!

ATV

2010-09-04T20:59:00.000-07:00

((((YES I KNOW, HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN WEARING HIS HELMET)))))
Anyway there was a trail right by our house, no hills just flat ground and we drove it around!! We got this for all the kids when we go camping and such, it will be a great little toy to have around!! He is a good little rider!!

More Swimming

2010-09-04T20:52:00.000-07:00

My kids are pretty much fish! Still love the pool and love to pretty much go everyday!!